I strongly dislike my mother. One she forgot my 16th birthday. Yeah it comes around every year, but it was kind of a big one for me. I mean it was suppost to be. Sweet Sixteen ring any bells? Anyway, this week is spring break and I could be hanging out with the friends that aren't going any where, but no, heaven forbid that Rebecca have any fun. I don't want her to be more happy than me so we will make her stay home cooped inside all day, she will be miserable. Oh but lets give her something to do. We will make her lay sod in the back yard and work the dirt for new vegitables that I will never buy let alone take care of so my family can have somthing that is not processed to eat. To top it all off, I can make my slave clean the house that I will nap in before going to bed and cook dinner and make my lunch for the next day. Oh! But wait! I can also make her do the dishes, because I will be sleeping. Why do I sleep so much, oh it is because I hate my job. Oh yes, the one where I sit on my ass all day and answer the single phone call I might get from a customer.
What a nice title for such a harsh thing to say. Maybe this is a test of God. I should not do anything and forgive my mom for taking advantage of me. I should do everything she tells me to do. Shouldn't I do what God tells me to do is he telling me to do it through my mom? I hope not. My mom once got Kicked out of her house when she was 16 because she stayed at church too long, she wasn't alowed to live with her parents ever again. She still went to chruch and was religious. But I think she has lost faith. She no longer goes to church or makes an effort. She was surprised when she found out I was going to the Church group at my school. She knows litteraly my name and how to take advantage of me. What she doesn't know is what I like to eat, my favorite thing to wear, my favorite book, my favorite store, my birthday, what I like to do...
What I really want from her is to be a mom to know all of my favorite things, to remember my birthday, to take care of herself, to find a new job so she stops compalining about the one she has... But at the same time I don't want change. I don't want her to care. I don't want her to know me, it would just be harder to disapear which is what I want right now. If she did know me, then I thing things would be different, but they aren't and they will not change.
What a nice title for such a harsh thing to say. Maybe this is a test of God. I should not do anything and forgive my mom for taking advantage of me. I should do everything she tells me to do. Shouldn't I do what God tells me to do is he telling me to do it through my mom? I hope not. My mom once got Kicked out of her house when she was 16 because she stayed at church too long, she wasn't alowed to live with her parents ever again. She still went to chruch and was religious. But I think she has lost faith. She no longer goes to church or makes an effort. She was surprised when she found out I was going to the Church group at my school. She knows litteraly my name and how to take advantage of me. What she doesn't know is what I like to eat, my favorite thing to wear, my favorite book, my favorite store, my birthday, what I like to do...
What I really want from her is to be a mom to know all of my favorite things, to remember my birthday, to take care of herself, to find a new job so she stops compalining about the one she has... But at the same time I don't want change. I don't want her to care. I don't want her to know me, it would just be harder to disapear which is what I want right now. If she did know me, then I thing things would be different, but they aren't and they will not change.
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